A Realization.

So hey, how are ya?

(long post ahead warning)

I have recently (yesterday) came to a realization about myself and how I look at life. No, this isn't going to be one of those "I find Jesus and go into a convent" posts. that's NEVER gonna happen. So don't worry. Okay. Now that's out of the way...

I came to my realization while eating a tasty meatball sandwich at Subway. The epiphany I had went something like this- picture having an internal dialogue with your conscience, if you will.

"This isn't really good for you."
"I know that, and I don't care."
"You SHOULD care."
"Aaaaannnd why is that?"
"Because the only one you're hurting by eating all this crappy-ass food is YOURSELF."

Now, none of you know me all that well. I happen to be considered (maybe?) 'Morbidly Obese' by those health people that make those decisions from wherever. I am 265 pounds, and it shows. I have been ashamed of myself for quite some time because i have been carrying (in the form of my weight) a lot of guilt around some stuff that has never been, nor will ever be, my cross to bear. That guilt rightfully belongs on someone else's shoulders...but I digress. I also use it as a defense mechanism, and I'm not going to lie, it's worked pretty goddamned well for a very long time.

Yesterday I decided that all of it was bullshit. no one else is going to be suffering the physical maladies I'll eventually have from carrying this extra heft around. I'll be doing that. No one else is gonna be paying them bills either. Again, that will be me. So...I think I've finally smartened up, and have already started making healthier eating choices. So...I guess that's it. That's all I wanted to say.

MusclePharm and Me

So, as part of my healthy weight loss- workout regimen, I've decided to start talking about the steps I'm taking to get there. I use the Men's Health Spartacus workouts regularly, and have decided to integrate some MusclePharm products into my routine.
MusclePharm is a line of supplements used by the UFC, and the research I did showed positive reviews, so I decided that this is the brand I would start my first truly serious attempt at weight loss and working out with. Since I'm on vacation, I plan on starting up my jogging routine again this year as well.

Shred Matrix is the first tool I plan on using in my MP arsenal. while you can take up to six pills a day, I'm not (only taking 2, which according to the directions is fine.) They have an 8 stage weight-loss system, which could be legit or just clever marketing - we shall see. Reccommended for usage 30 minutes before breakfast and lunch, and not reccommended within 6 hours of bedtime (I took my first afternoon dosage at around 2 yesterday afternoon and didn't sleep until approximately 3 am this morning - no idea if that was caused by that or the fact I was on a roll with Dead Space 2.)

The next tool I plan on utilizing is Assault - I see it as a "pre-workout Crystal Light". You also utilize this 20-30 minutes before a workout, and it comes in a variety of flavors. I got raspberry lemonade.

I have not tried this yet, but plan on doing so today, and if I remember to do so I will tell you all what I think.

Last but not least, I'm going to be using Combat, a protein powder.

While you can take this anytime during the day, I intend on using it as my post workout. This too also comes in a variety of flavors - I snagged the triple berry, and intend on making smoothies with it (trying it out with chia seeds - never had them before but heard they're supposed to be wicked good for you! Check them out!)

While I didn't provide a shit ton of information here about these products, these and more can be found at MusclePharm, Bodybuilding, or other supplement stores.

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